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Treasure ~ Day 15~ 31 Day Writing Challenge

 

“He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” Revelation 21:4 (NLT)

Treasure

As I stepped into the house, the house I hadn’t been in for three months, my house, I was greeted by a host of sorrow and joy. Happily, I was back home where I belonged, but I was grieving too having left my grandsons after being with them for so long. They say that “home is where your heart is.” If that’s true, it explains why my heart feels divided like a puzzle of many pieces. 

When I moved to West Virginia for my first teaching job I left part of my heart behind with my family. The home my husband and I have created was made with heart and soul. As our children married and moved away, parts of my heart packed up and left with them. And then there are those grandsons of mine! Each one carries a fragment of my heart tucked in theirs. 

A heart pulled in the directions of home, honestly, it leaves me a bit off-kilter with an ever-present sense of yearning. Maybe you know exactly I mean. And as much as we treasure all those we love, having a divided heart can leave us feeling unsettled.

Pondering this, it’s occurred to me that God places that very sense of yearning in our hearts for a purpose. His purpose. If you’re like me, when in one place you long for another. When in another, you wish for somewhere else. The truth God wants us to know is that a divided heart is never satisfied and I’m learning that the desire we feel for home, to be in the presence of love, will not be fulfilled here. We should instead be preparing for a move!

“Store your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal. Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.
Matthew 6:20-21 (NLT)

“For this world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come.”
Hebrews 13:14 (NLT)

Jesus tells us in John 14 to not let our hearts be troubled. He also assures us that a place is being prepared for us. When we step into the glory of our Father’s house, the Heavenly Host will welcome us with only joy. There’ll be no sorrow, crying, or tears. And that divided heart? It will be made whole, sealed with perfect love. And my friends, we will finally know that we’re Home where we belong!

A Divided Heart ~Wise Wednesday 6/28/17

“When a child is born, so are grandmothers.” ~Judith Levy Pixabay

Divided: separated; shared; to diverge; cleave………..

I have decided that being a grandparent causes you to suffer from a “divided heart”. Beginning at the instant you learn your child is having a child, it’s as if a magnetic force immediately draws your thoughts, dreams, prayers, and overwhelming love in the direction of that tiny, beating heart, hidden from the world. 

Fast forward to that breathless moment when the miracle that will call you “MiMi” (replace this with whatever your grands call you or will call you) is placed in your arms.  Everything else fades away. Cradling this precious armful, older heart to brand new heart, it seems they beat in unison, filling a place you didn’t know was empty, and nothing is ever the same again.

Time is both precious and tormenting. The longer you want to savor the sight, breathe in the scent, and caress the tiny fingers and toes of this new person in your life; the faster the minutes, hours, and days seem fly by. All too soon you’re faced with saying goodbye. Your stomach clenches.  Tears flow.  A heart divides.

A temporary condition?  Afraid not. A one time thing? Nope! Carson is two now: my heart?  Still  pulled in different directions.  We’ve recently been blessed with Owen: my heart? The chasm has grown.   The struggle is real! While my very being wants to wipe every tear, experience every milestone, calm every fear, and read bedtime stories every night with my grandsons; I’m also drawn home. My normal: the routine, responsibilities, schedule, and those that wait for me, beckon. Yes, a heart divided….wanting to cling to one place while yearning for the other.

Pondering this heart situation, it has occurred to me that we suffer in a similar way as Christians.  

“Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God.  Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.”
Colossians 3:1-2 (NIV)

Above?  Earthly Things? Earthly things? Above? A heart divided! I  often find myself torn between a heart that is focused on me and my wants and one that is looking to follow God’s plan for my life. Maybe you do, too. And while we want to be home with Christ, where our fears will be calmed and our tears wiped away; to get there, we are faced with saying goodbye to THIS home. We cling to our earthly life and yet yearn for Heaven. Thank goodness God sent Jesus to bridge the gap of our broken hearts! Jesus said:

“Do not let your hearts be troubled.  You believe in God; believe also in me.  My Father’s house has many rooms; if it were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you?  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.  You know the way to the place where I am going.” “I am the way the truth and the life.  No one comes to the Father except through me.”
John 14:1-4, 6-7 (NIV)

I wasn’t prepared for the powerful love that comes with being a grandparent. I’m blessed to only live four hours away from the boys and technology helps keep us connected in-between visits.  Goodbyes will always be hard. As my heart continues to pull me in different directions, I pray it reminds me to always stay connected to the One who, with the greatest love of all, is preparing a place for me where my heart will be divided no more.

 

 

 

 

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