Have you ever found yourself hanging in limbo between “all that I am and all that I’m not”? That’s where I find myself now, dangling, like Paul when he wrote in Romans 7:15 “I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.”
Starting my day in devotion with God, following through on the things He’s calling me to do, trusting His plan and not my own……all things I believe I’m to pursue, and some days I get it right. But then I swing off track and checking Facebook, lingering too long, worry, and so much more have me suspended in a place I don’t want to be.
I’ve been watching a hornets’ nest high in a tree outside my kitchen window. It sways like a pendent in the wind back and forth, back and forth…..just. like. me. Over time, all that mid-air action has caused rips and dents to form but the nest continues to holds fast. How can that be? Is there a lesson for me, perhaps? Maybe you can relate too. For as much as I don’t “understand myself” and waiver between what is right and what I hate, I’ve found this WE have to hold on to:
“This is why we have a great High Priest who has gone to heaven, Jesus the Son of God. Let us cling to Him and never stop trusting him. This High priest of ours understands our weaknesses for he faced all of the same temptations we do, yet He did not sin. So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it.”
Yes, hanging in limbo is a frustrating place to be. I know better. I want better. What a blessing it is that despite the bumps and bruises, the back and forth, the do and don’t do, a hornets’ nest reminds us that we are anchored in the grasp of God, who knows just where we are and where we’re going. We can boldly leave limbo behind and embrace with certainty, that with His help, mercy and grace we’ll reach our destination.
I’m really enjoying writing posts as part of Suzanne Eller’s #livefreeThursday. This week’s prompt as you might have guessed is “limbo”. If you’d like to read more thoughts on being in limbo click here http://www.tsuzanneeller.com